For several weeks now, I've been contemplating a decision that was laid at my feet many a year ago, and I've finally made a choice. I'm going to make an active effort to prepare everything I need for me to move up to Mass.

You may be wondering why to go there, but I've always wanted to go there, mostly by myself to live, and I've got a support set up there now and everything.

I feel good about my decision, its like a heavy weight has been lifted off of me. I know this will be good for me, and I know that many things will change because of this, maybe my temperament will. I get the feeling it will and I won't be so anxious all the time.

=) I feel so good about it. I've gots plans and everything.

* save money
* get my stuff in order
* inform my family about it (I'll do that in a couple of months)
* inform all my friends (you three are the first to know, so keep a lid on it, or so help me I will hex you)

Anywho.... thats it.

Niko J.

So another year has come, and it has just as quickly gone. There were moments that it seemed to just crawl by at an excruciating slow pace; while at the same time it rushed by leaving us dizzy in its dust. Looking back I see how there have been many changes throughout my life, I've lost friends, made new ones. Reconnected with some distant forgotten emotions, bonded with people that I never really had a chance to before. I've encountered new situations, parts of my past, and even dared to hope for a better future. I'm sadly, ending this year exactly the same way I started it, alone somewhere where I'd rather not be, at least for the moment. But I'm not one to challenge Fate and her Ways.

The dawn of a New Year is here, 2010... where do the years go? Have a happy New Year! Let Fortune smile upon you.

Nik E J.

Dead rise to the Left
Spirits descend on the Right
I am the One that heeds their Plight

Good or Evil
Right or Wrong
None are denied
Till the Task is Done

Endless is the Road
Of I who walk the Realms
Chill, and Dark
Is the Way before me

Not many are those
Who Traverse the Realms
Sanity is the Duality
Of Our Reality

Shamans, Witches,
Priests and Prophets.
We are they,
Faith is our only Guide.

It has been to long since my last post... but then again I did not have the wonderful and amazing Ether. But now I have it and its in Wireless! The Gods and Goddesses are feeling very benevolent to me right now.

An Update:

I have been working at Best Buy in the Pinecrest Shopping Center, where the Whole Foods Supermarket is, for about two or three months now. Work is great, I'm enjoying it. Being on the media sales floor is fun and exciting, also give me a chance to catch up on my technological and musical addictions.

I've recently purchased the Sneaker Pimps album called "Becoming X." Its a very old album but I love it. Found it at work by pure fluke, needless to say it made my day so much better.

Right now I'm getting anxious over my sister and her pregnancy, she's 37-38 weeks now and its nerve racking because her doctors say that she still isn't ready, even after she's gone into REAL labor more than twice since she was 35 weeks.

I'm interested in someone but its a slow process this one. He's a bit of a tease, and he doesn't like the fact that I'm not into that kind of game. But still we get along pretty well.

I've stopped smoking for good. Its been several weeks (almost 2 months) since I've had my last cigarettes. I've used lollipops and lemonade to help move my oral fixation onto something else.

End Update


Well that's my life at the moment. Its a trying time and more enjoyable as the year comes to an end. Hopefully my new year will be even better.

Ta

Niko Jones

by sneaker pimps....


<3 <3

... I'm open to falling from grace...

I have a craving. Actually... I have several. But we'll get to those all in due time. First order of business is just to scribble out the random thoughts in my mind. Lately I've noticed that I've become a bit introverted. More specifically, I'm introverted to the point that I'm back to how I was in high school. So once more I'm enigmatic, and secretive. Oh joy. I've also fallen back onto old tendencies. Case and point... the guy I'm currently sleeping with. Before it just used to be just all about the momentary bliss of having good sex. Now, its become more tender... more sensual and erotic instead of the typical "1-2-3... thank you, bye..." and this is driving me to want the sex to be better than good or great... I want mind-blowing sex from this guy. And I know that he can provide, and from what I've seen of his reactions, he wants the same from me... but sadly... I'm stuck home caring for my sister... (as luck would have it... DAMN IT) but anyway... I digress... back to random thoughts. (and to those who are reading this and feel like I'm providing too much info.... bugger you. xoxoxo)
Well something along these same lines but its about another boy. One that I've always cared for but never really had the balls to talk to about it. HE comes out of nowhere and starts telling me how he feels about me and how he wants to get together with me... but the kick in the pants.... he lives out of state. WHY?!?!?!

sigh... men... drive me up the wall... more than i need... and they all do it when I'm not in the mood for them.... WHY?!?!

AND NOW... my cravings...

I want:
* Belgian Waffles
* to go to Spain and listen to traditional Spanish Guitar. (GII-tarrr as I say to val)
* my sister's and my b-day to go off without a hitch
* that my sister's baby's daddy can come back from Puerto Rico in one piece and quickly. (All the phone calls at midnight is making me want to hurl)
* to go to the beach and watch the sun set and rise


Thats about it....


Nik E Jones

PS
APPARENTLY.... I live in Akron, Ohio....

PSS
I'm really digging spanish music... from the other side of world, and Portuguese music too....

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that is all

nik J

So I found out at around 2:35 am that I'm going to be an uncle. My little sister, Rebecca and her boyfriend are going to be proud parents. She's about 16 wks preggers. Her expected due date is December 4. Thats right, Valerie's birthday.

Ah the joys of my life.

One never understands how Two can live its life.
One doesn't comprehend the way Three stand idly by.
One is confused as to how Four goes round and round.
One is perplexed by the way Five fails to learn.
One is vexed at Six and doesn't remember why.
One avoids Seven at all costs.
Eight is One's biggest enemy.
Nine like to slap One in its face.

Zero is One's only friend, and together they walk away
Hand in hand.

In the midst of my starting roll for a better life, there has been a number of hiccups.

My cat Hades, whom I presume to have been killed by this "Cat Killer" that's lurking about my neighborhood; is gone.

My health is deteriorating in a way that even has me bothered about it for once.

I've lost my job, thanks to my health.

But other than that, life continues on, and I'm for the opinion of not looking back.


Nik E J

There he is sitting alone in the corner of the coffee shop. He's been coming in and sitting there for the past four days. He orders black coffee, but he doesn't drink it. Instead he just adds sugar, stirs it in, and stares down into the liquid. He looks a bit disheveled, as if he hasn't gotten enough sleep. His brown hair tossed this way and that. His green eyes are bloodshot, like he's been crying, yet no evidence of tears are present. His clothes are wrinkled and stained with a myraid of things. Curiousity is at its peak. How I long to know this man's pain, his life. Yet all I do is stare at him from my own corner of the shop. My reddish hair neatly combed and washed. My blue eyes free of any sign of tears, hidden behind small, clean cut glasses. My clothes all of formal attire and pressed clean. All I find myself able to do is just watch this man stare down at his coffee as he trys to battle his own demons.

~~~~

Thats all for now.

I gots a job! its unofficial for the moment... but that's only for about a week. When the drug test clears I'm back on the work force.

Its a hell of a job. I send all the information from a law firm to the corresponding judge. Time sensitive material... real hectic stuff. But its fast paces and I'll enjoy doing it.

Thats all for now.

Nik E Jones

Watching the sun rise for the past couple of days has been midly refreshing... save for the fact that I fall asleep at noon and don't wake up till 10p. But I suppose we all must make sacrifices for the change of sleeping habits.

In other news... 4 months till my birthday... oh the joy of turning 22.

Nik E J

I've done it again.... slept 6 hours and stayed up 20+... I really need to break this habit of mine... its turning me into a severe night creature....

night night

Nik E J

... talk about hitting it old school... :)

But hey it works for now

Valerie's little brother, Carlitos, and his friend, Kyle, were subjects to a group jumping 30 minutes ago. I just love my neighborhood!! (sarcasm to the most potent value)

Why do I feel like crying for no reason?
Why do I feel like nothing can make me feel better?
Why do I feel so empty?

Why did I cry at that anime last night?
Why did I wake up in tears?
Why did I wipe them away?

Why did I eat a whole cake by myself?
Why did I look for more food?
Why did I bother?


:: Note::

I'm feeling like crap... thanks to Val...

when you are trying to get to livejournal...

1. you type lievjournal.com and spend two minutes looking at it trying to figure out if the site went through a change.

2. you realize your mistake and then type in livejournal.com.com and spend another two minutes tryiing to figure out what went wrong.

yeah... no lie... just happened to me

Tralel Khtta

The "interview" I was supposed to have was just to go in and place an application...

I feel like blowing a receptionist up...

§ I'm jonesing pretty hard right now due to nerves
§ I've the interview today at 2p... so why the hell am I still awake?
§ Learned that I'm playing a dangerous game of cat and mouse... Good thing I know limits and am teaching them to the other player.
§ 17 lied to me... is actually 14... please note... I'm really annoyed and not trying anything.
§ Got "gay bashed" on WoW... how does that work you might ask... simple a couple of heterosexual players group together and PvE on you till your character dies all the while spamming hate... makes sense doesn't it?
§ . . . I've got nothing else...

Ta

Nik E J